I feel like being a fat lazy single slob sometimes. But i cant do that, i love the ladys.

Whoa new Post.

well basically I have decided to move to Washington. A town called Pullman, Basically the only thing there is Washington state University. I want to move into this 4 bedroom apartment i found online. In August/July of 09 so basically a year from now. At that time My goal is to have a car, and enough cash for the first 2 months rent. I also want to be debt free besides my car. I will drive there so i have a vehicle and a way to get to work. I would need to find a job pretty quick because i cant take much with me. Ill need to buy a matress and thats all i will need at first. I would obviously be living with Danielle While she goes to school there. we would need roomates for the other 3 bedrooms. a few people have expressed interest in living with us including My friends Bre and Jason, and her friends Sarah and Mandy. Who ever has money at the time and wants to live there and is willing to sign the lease with danielle and i is welcome to come and live. So i have 1 year to get my shot straight. then i will start my new life there. im not one to run away from my problems, but everyone agrees that the smart thing to do is to go live with her.

Danielles Car is on autotrader.com

you have no idea how much i wish i was rich right now.

i would totally fly there buy it and then buy a house near her school. shit would be awesome. i would be happy.

Speaking of living there.

i found an apartment complex there.

I want to move there in about a year.

I need to be here when my mom gets out of Jail.

i need a car

i need money to pay for it during the time i am job searching and untill i get my paychecks.

Moving costs alot.

they have 4 bedroom apartments so danielle and i would have one, perferably the master, and there would be 3 more. she has a year to recruit ppl to live with us. and Jason Grimes talked about moving in but IDK.

I really want to do this.

I am in love with her.

Life stinks.

i have to trust her.

it sucks.

My trust has been abused before, but it was not by her.

Ugh.

its difficult.

Was Incredible. The City itself is extremely small, but the suburbs are well populated. I finally got to meet Danielle. Grandparents dont really understand meeting people online, but it was soooo worth it. She was sooo amazing. and we got to ride around in her cool ass car the whole time. I had a blast, all because of her. I did miss home, but then realized i dont really have a home. i feel like i belong in Georgia. Like i seriosly thought about buying a ticket to Atlanta rather than back to Maryland. There was talk about me moving to Seattle too. Im not so sure on that one. I am still to young and immature i think. whatevvvs

so I am in my grandparents house.

Alone

For a week.

In the middle of the woods.

Horror movie material.

I'm scared.

 Makes the Best Hashbrowns in the entire world.

Well, today and yesterday, have been eventful.

I am applying to Journeys, Footaction, and Zumiez today.

I wrote my mom for the first time today

i feel like shit for taking this long.

I learned something incredible

you know that chick in your senior english class in highschool?

the one with really good grades, and have never seen with a boyfriend.

and she is pretty attractive?

Yeah, that one, she sends me an IM, telling me

that she wants to lose 35 Lbs, get more tatoos, and become a suicide girl.

Are you kidding me? how awesome would that be!?

for those of you who are not familiar with suicide girls this should give you an idea:

So, i wont have a phone for a good while people, You have read about my financial troubles, And i jumped in the pool with laurens cell phone too.

ughhhh

I-N-D-E-P-E-N-C-E

she got her own country

SHuddddddup

I have not had internet in 2 days.

ITS BACK

this independence day shit, just shows me how dependant i am.

i have to work today how fun.

Happy July 4th world

Even tho 3 people MAX will read this.

So this morning i had a meeting with my grandmother about all this finance shit,

So she has always had money, and does not understand overdraft fees or late fees.

My account was scheduled to close tommorow.

so, i woke up early, chatted about this, then we drove to PNC,

She got her panties in a bunch and all angry.

the bank manager wasnt there, so they couldnt do squat, we waited and waited, she had to go play bridge, so we left and set up a meeting for right before they close, so i drove her to bridge, then i got some subway, and went to the mall to see what i would buy if i had money. Came home, layed down, went and got her then drove to the bank right?

wellll apperantly they cant do shit bc i didnt open my account there, so we had to drive to the laurel branch.

we spoke to the president of the fucking bank,

he took off 2 overdraft fees.

some guy on his first day could have done that.

whatever.

so then she loaned me money to make the balance positive,

i went by my dads house, he wasnt there, got a phone charger and then grocery store.

now i am home, and still broke.

UGH

now i will have a phone atleast.

Piece of CRAP!

So apperantly my PNC card is negative 300 dollars.

I need money.

Lets do a little math here

300 I owe to pnc
600 i owe to Bank of america.
1000 on my credit card.

ok thats 1900 dollars in debt

1900
200 for iphone 3g
220 for tickets to seattle
100 dollars spending money would be nice.
20 i owe noe.

thats $2420 dollars so far.


ok, lets Add money.

800 is my credit limit on my cc, so if i max it out, i will have 800.
600 im not paying bank of america no matter how many times they call.
110 my dad is supposed to pay for one ticket
55 maybe danielle is paying for half my ticket?

thats 1365

  2420
- 1365
------------
$1055

I have to come up with over $1000 dollars in like less than 30 days.

WTF

haha. on a much lighter note, while i was at the bank, the teller was very very attractive, her name was jenna i believe, she was a red head. she was telling me how broke i was. but in the middle of that, she managed to ask if my hair was naturall, i replyed no, she said it was the most natural looking red dye, she has ever seen and was like, i hate my hair, why would anyone dye it red!

i was to in shock about money to make any kind of witty reply, she went on talking about money and credit cards and "Kids our age"

she asked how old i was, i said 20, and she was one of those girls that its hard to tell their age, she could have been 18-26 but damn, she was hott. she signed me up for all kinds of shit too. to bad she didnt take any overdraft fees off.


Georgia is ruining me!

So tonight has basically sucked. I am in my underware Listening to Lupe Fiasco and T.I.

Started great, Today is my grandparents 51st wedding anniversary. we had a big party last year for the big one.

Today would also be Danielle and my 5 month anniversary if we were still together.

So my grandparents and i went out to eat to celebrate for them.

We went to Carrabas, I saw that on the menu for drinks, they had san pellegrino, that drink was mentioned in my favorite movie Juno.

so i said hey, i might as well try it.

it was absolutely nasty. disgusting gross, i ordered something spicy and had to suffer through it.

i am a vegetarian, and my grandmother asked me about 8 times if i wnted the mushrooms off the top of her VEAL MARSALA,

FUCK NO

i would not even eat that before i was a vegetarian.

ugh

so on the way home i talked to my dad, he asked what i ordered, i told him (pasta with spicy marinara, mushrooms, tomatoes, garlic and some eggplant) So he was likr, that sounds good, i bet they dont have that in the DEKALB COUNTY JAIL. (my mother was sentenced to a year in prison there a few weeks ago) what an asshole.

I have no computer,

My blackberry went swimming, so i am currently phoneless.

and right before i typed this, i was looking at my grand mothers cell phone and found this picture:



It made me so sad.

nobody has physically loved me in so long,

Life Sucks.

The moon Must be Blue.